Slipping. I feel like I am slipping. I am slipping. We've all had the feeling. Slipping grades, slipping away from your friends or morals, time slipping away, or even slipping into a state of mind. What is it to be slipping? It's that feeling of holding on so tight, but you can still feel yourself losing your grip. So you try to hold on tighter, but it seems as if everything is "slipping" away. It is scary.
I can feel myself slipping. I might just be over-thinking, but in my mind I feel as if I don't have much longer to hold on. People seem to slip away from me, even though I'm holding on so tight. Then again, maybe that's my problem. Maybe if I wasn't holding on so tight, I wouldn't have so much to lose. It hurts to know that I have no control over people who I want to stay. If they want to leave, they can and there's nothing I can do. I think that's the hardest part.
So what do you do? Do you hold on as tight as you can and hope for the best? You could be prolonging the fall and the hurt, but at least you know you tried your hardest. Do you just let go and fall, never knowing if you could have changed things? Or do you just hang? You just let yourself slip, or maybe someone will pull you up...
And then you realize, maybe you're slipping because you have no idea what to hold onto. You aren't looking for someone to lead you; you aren't listening for the voice telling you that they're always there for you. Maybe the reason everything around you is slipping away is because you're slipping away from God. You don't talk to Him like you used to. You don't look for Him. You go against His calling. All along you've been slipping, and you don't realize it until you find you have almost nothing to hold onto.
How do you get back to the point where you are on somewhat solid ground? I listen, but I fail to hear. I look, but I fail to see. I read, but I fail to understand. Will I ever be successful in my climb back to Him? I know He is there reaching out, but it's so hard to make my way to Him. I feel like I am in a long climb alone. How do I stop slipping? I'd sure like to know.
